Silent Void

I cannot stay here in this silence,
It is killing me, slowly and painfully, tearing me apart,
Tearing me inside where others can not see, can not feel,
I am lost in this void, stuck with a scratched record memory.  

Leave me here alone, take my life again, inevitably leading down,
For what you can not inflict on me, I inflict upon myself,
Oh star scarred heart, wound yourself no more, no more please,
Your brain is lost in cloud, your body hits the floor.

But death is not an easy solution to grip, for the mind shies away,
And I fear it will not be the true release as I want it, there is much undone,
I must therefore break this silence, and carry on with the guilt, grief and pain,
And go out and sing, survive as I can, and dance with childish joy again in this rain.